In Search of Fulfillment

Last Monday was my first day back at work after my second eye surgery. (Sounds like deja vu, doesn't it?) I swear that Sunday night I had butterflies out of this world and my sleep was restless and fitful. This is totally not good. I had a 3 day weekend and I am experiencing the same symptoms. This is NOT good. I've been working for this communications company for a year and 5 months.

The pay is good and with commission, I bring in good money. I love my co-workers. HOWEVER, the cubicle life is leaving me wanting so much more. The stress of the job almost isn't worth the money. My shift sucks (although I can't complain about that anymore since I do get a new one starting in exactly a month.) I have so much stress and anxiety before my shift starts. It usually passes once I get there, but it shouldn't be like that. I NEED AND CRAVE fulfillment in my job and life.

It's not just the job. I just need something different. I need to do something that makes me feel like I am doing something that matters....whether or not I get paid for it. It's time to re-examine the bar exam. For real. One more go at it. Outside of the state of Mississippi. I sat that dream on the shelf because it was taking too long. That wasn't fair to myself. Something has got to give.

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Getting Back Into The Swing Of Things

Today was my first day back at work since the surgery. 2 things....

1. Mondays are awful days to go back to work after a leave of absence. 
2. It's bright as all hell inside my office!!

I don't ever remember it being that bright before. I guess it has every thing to do with having to dilate my eyes twice a day. I'm literally sitting at my cubicle for 30 minutes at a time with the cataract shades on looking like Ray Charles. A co-worker told me "I'd rather look like him than be him..." Touche. 

I'm at work....however my personnel number is still inactive. Somebody better fix this before the end of the pay period. I worked all day. I need every bit of my $137.12. (yep....every dime).

I thought I missed work while I was out because I was SO bored. Turns out I didn't miss my job at all. In fact, I had butterflies in my stomach from the time my alarm went off...and not the good kind. It's about that time to get some new responsibilities. I'm not very good with repetition and monotony, so I'm getting antsy. Praying for new possibilities. 

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Review: Triangles

Triangles by Ellen Hopkins

My rating: 4 of 5 stars



Triangles is my very first book of 2012. Although I started reading this book in December's, the majority was read after the new year.

This book was an interesting read for the mere fact that it was written totally in prose. I loved to see how the poems from one character wives themselves and intermingled with the poems of another character.

This book centers around 3 women in their forties, heading toward a midlife crisis. Holly is a housewife with 3 loving kids and a husband who loves her. However, she is seriously bored with her life. This boredom added to a dramatic weight loss leads to get seeking happiness outside the relationship. Andrea is Holly's best friend. She is a lonely single mother, who can't get on board with Holly's new lifestyle and ponders taking Holly's neglected husband off her hands. Marissa, Andrea's sister, is also a housewife with a distant, alcoholic husband, a homosexual son, and a terminally ill daughter that leaves her asking many questions of her life. This book has plenty of spicy, erotic scenes for those who are into that and other heartfelt moments.

I originally rated this book 5 stars when I first finished. Just thinking about the book a few days later, I have to drop it down to 4 stars. What I didn't like about the book was the fact that it was so ling (529 pages) and after all that the book ended with no real solutions or conclusions for the characters. Still a very good read in my opinion.



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